Wednesday, January 3, 2007

How to Make Lemonade... When Life Gives You Lemons

How to Make Lemonade… When Life Gives You Lemons
by Christine Kloser, “The Conscious Business Coach”

I never imagined I’d be in this situation. Literally, as I write this, I’m experiencing something I never thought would happen to me. I share this deeply personal experience with you because I believe there isn’t a separation between business and life when you’re a Conscious Entrepreneur. How you handle situations in your life is how you’ll handle them in business and vice versa. In hopes you will glean something from my experience that serves your highest good in business and in life… here goes.

I couldn’t be happier, my plan was unfolding in perfect order… or so I thought. I had always intended to be pregnant with my second child by the time I turned 40 in December 2006. And, as intended, it happened right on time with grace and ease. Christmas was extraordinarily special… announcing to my family and my husband’s family (in person) that we were expected our next child in the summer of 2007. We had Christmas ornaments made for our parents with four Christmas stockings that read “David, Christine, Janet (my almost 2 year old) and Baby.” It was the perfect way to announce the great news.

I admit when I first found out I was pregnant (even though it was my intention) I was somewhat surprised it happened with such speed and ease. Granted, our first daughter was conceived in the blink of an eye, but could it possibly happen like that again, especially being 2 ½ years older?

I was surprised because I felt I was truly experiencing the power of manifesting and intentions being realized. I was being called to grasp the magnificence of my life at an entirely new level of acceptance, “bigness” and bliss. I felt I was being pulled by the Universe to embrace how incredibly joyous life can be. Still, in the recesses of my mind, I wondered if my life was getting “too good to be true.” How could it possibly be THIS magical?

You can imagine my devastation when I experienced a miscarriage the day after Christmas. It was especially challenging because I was away in Connecticut. I couldn’t go see my doctor, I didn’t want to ruin the holiday for my family, I had a Christmas gathering to attend right after I found out I miscarried, and it had taken some fancy footwork to find a doctor and ultrasound technician who would see me immediately the day after a major holiday. It was a whirlwind. I was in physical pain, scared, sad, angry and feeling uncertain of everything.

Life had given me lemons… just when I felt I was swimming in an abundant pool of sweet, tasty lemonade. Once we got home to Pennsylvania, I entered “Super Christine” mode. I got down to the business of preparing for a New Year. I organized nearly my entire home, started (and finished) a scrapbook project, went shopping for gizmos, gadgets, and storage supplies that we needed around the house, returned some Christmas gifts, organized thousands of digital photos, and researched a new eating plan to naturally reduce my cholesterol. All within 48 hours!

Then, it hit. The floodgate of tears and pain surfaced on New Year’s Night. This is when my husband and I traditionally do our annual intention setting ritual. And, I couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t find it in my heart to write my intentions for the year.

Instead, I curled up and cried for a good long while. Somehow amidst the tears and pain, I managed to find my journal and a pen upstairs in my bedroom. I had a feeling the process of writing while I was enmeshed in the emotion would be the key to release some of the pain and begin to turn lemons into lemonade. I cathartically wrote page after page after page. If I wasn’t wiping my tears I was writing. Thankfully, at some point, my loving husband came to me and simply sat beside me while I cried and wrote. Once I was done writing, he held me close and I cried even more in the safety and comfort of his arms.

The act of writing while in a heightened emotional state was metaphorically my way of “squeezing lemons”. I began to connect with the perfection, gifts and lessons this “Baby Spirit” was here to bring me. I found gratitude for the short time I was pregnant. I felt my prioritize shift as I wrote. I forgave myself for having lost the baby. I committed to taking better care of myself physically and emotionally. And, by the end of my journal entry (without being conscious about it) I had written all of my intentions for 2007.

The next time life give you lemons, I invite you to remember what I’ve shared here. And, I trust, you will discover your own way to make lemonade.

© 2007 Christine Kloser

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2 comments:

Lo said...

Oh Christine, I am so sorry for your pain. As a mother myself I can only imagine the heartache of a miscarriage. I'm glad you were able to use the energy as a catalyst for what you want to create in this year and the ones to come. You are truly blessed.

Kyle said...

Christine,

I am so so sad for your loss! How amazingly you touched me when I read your post.

I wish you the best in the year to come!

Kyle